I was only 14 when I started to notice men as well as women. Sexual curiosity can be a crazy thing sometimes.
Around the time I turned 12 my dad left my mom and it was just the two of us. My mom worked two jobs just to keep the lights on and food on the table. I found myself home alone a lot and feeling very lonely.
At the same time, I found myself getting more and more interested in sex. A 12 year old boy who is home alone more often than not will get into an awful lot of trouble.
It started with innocent snooping through my mother’s underwear drawer. Just to see and feel what women’s underwear felt like. I came to the startling realization much later in life that I was very attracted to my mom. I wasn’t thinking about that at 12 though, I just wanted to see panties, bras and lingerie.
My mom had quite the collection of sexy bedroom apparel. When my parents were together, I would hear them having sex almost every night. I even found myself being aroused by it.
As time went by, my innocent snooping became more and more curious. Before long I was trying on her underwear. Then her lingerie. Then I found myself masturbating while wearing her clothes. It got to the point where I would wear her bra and panties, along with her regular clothes around the house, then when I couldn’t take it any longer, I’d masturbate in her bed. I was essentially fantasizing about being my mom.
When I was 14 I became friends with our new neighbors. There was a girl my age named Melina and her 12 year old brother Jose who was the one I really befriended. I was very much in love with Melina as the years went on but she had no interest in me whatsoever.
One afternoon Jose and I were just being boys and wrestling around and in the process I accidentally grabbed his genitals. The wrestling came to an abrupt stop as silence now controlled the room. He decided to go home.
Over the course of the next few weeks, Jose, and I would find we both enjoyed wrestling with each for reasons beyond boys like to wrestle each other.
I had a small collection of porn magazines that I had gotten from a dumpster diving expedition and Jose and I would find ourselves looking at them together. Long story short, it ultimately lead to us masturbating together. We would do this after school every day. For 2 months that’s all we did. Come home from school, go to my bedroom, pull our pants down to our ankles and masturbate together while looking at Playboy’s. Never touching each other but definitely watching each other as much if not more than the magazines.
It was during this time that I realized that not only do I like women, I’m also interested in men as well. Suddenly the dressing up in my mom’s clothes made a little more sense.
This particular day we stuck to the routine, we masturbated together as usual. Afterwards we pulled our pants up and I suggested we wrestle each other. Jose agreed.
It started as normal as can be but then I reached around and this time, purposely grabbed his genitals. This time he didn’t freak out. This time he let me. So I continued while still in the same position we were in while wrestling. Within seconds his dick was hard and so was mine.
We were both clearly terrified of what was happening. As scared as I was, I really wanted to keep going. Jose was not as eager to continue and eventually he went home.
A few days later Jose asked if we could have a sleepover and I was ecstatic. When he got to my house my mom was just leaving for her evening job and Jose and I had the next 4 hours to ourselves.
It started off with us looking at porn magazines but this time I decided to rather than just pull my pants down to my ankles, I was going to get completely naked.
Jose was giggling a bit when he saw me naked but I thought that a better response than going home again. With a little encouragement, Jose joined me and we were now both lying naked on my bed with a Hustler magazine between us.
“Have you ever French kissed anyone?” I asked
“No.” Jose responded
Instead of trying to talk him into it, I decided to roll towards him, put my hand on the back of his head and shove my tongue in his mouth. Up to that point I had only kissed one girl. Now I was kissing a boy!
“Well, what did you think?” I asked after removing my tongue from his mouth
“I kind of liked it.” He answered with a small laugh “..wanna do it again?”
“Yes!” I exclaimed
We spent the next 10 minutes naked on my bed kissing and rubbing against each other until both of us came all over each others stomachs. It obviously wasn’t sex but it felt like we were.
We cleaned up and started playing video games but about a half hour into that, we started kissing and before long our clothes were removed again.
A couple hours later it was time to go to bed, so we put a chair in front of my bedroom door so my mom couldn’t walk in on us. Instead of sleeping on the floor as he usually would, we agreed to sleep naked together in my bed. We spent the first hour of lights out kissing and rubbing against each other. Again, it wasn’t actually sex but it was to us.
