When i was 10-14 i was raped and assaulted by my 16-18 yr old brother which he would then let me play on his xbox
When i was younger i didnt have my own gadgets but my brother did which he then used to his advantage as i wanted to play on his games i couldn’t tell then but my brother was always weird to me if i was hot he would tell me to take my top off or he would watch porn in his room and wank around me this all never really bothered me
Until on day my brother lets call him B decided if i wanted to go on his xbox anymore he wanted something in return it started out with french kissing my pussy and sucking on my tits which was starting to form kissing me and touching my body to then dry humping me and me grinning on him which i sort of enjoyed
When he started to try actually fuck me I wouldnt let him at first but let him think he was basically fucking my thighs and cheeks but never actually entering my body or he would try get me to suck his dick (i hated it and found it gross) I didn’t like it anymore but I didn’t know what to do or how to stop him he scared me there was an incident he chased me with a knife bc i didn’t let him do things to me or I would often wake up at night to him touching me and trying to take my clothes off .
I dont want this to get long and i getting quite wet thinking of him doing these things again so ima cut to the point there was only 2 times B ever successfully got his dick in my ass the first was one day all our family was home i was laid on his bed naked laying on top of my teddy scared of what was gonna happen my brother got me to hold my cheeks open as he put his dick in me dry he didn’t get to far in me before i started screaming and crying so he stop most likely because he didn’t wanna be caught not that he felt bad the second time he successfully came in my ass i had just came home from school we in my door way/the landing of the stairs he wet in my ass again dry as i was holding myself up again with our house full as i tried to keep quiet with the thought if anyone came up they would of seen me like this he was deep pounding painfully in my ass to which he then came and just left me there with cum running out my ass to which i used my tights to clean up
Ive felt disgusting in my body ever since and unable to be cleaned but now when im most horny i crave him fucking me and think of going into his room or messaging him but im unsure of what to say him snd my daddy issues made me love sexualising myself to older men and find c-p and a-p hot sometimes i crave being helpless and being used
